Wednesday, May 11, 2005

I risk...

I risk asking and getting rejected but I will know the person’s response if I do

I risk failure but I can only succeed if I do it

I risk failure when trying out new things but I will learn something if I do

I risk being laughed at because of my incompetence when I try something, but I will only know how competent I am when I do it.

I risk being condemned when I confess my wrongdoings, but I will be forgiven if I do

I fear letting go but I will move on if I do


“Do or do not, There is not try”- Yoda


I used to fear many things in my life, I still do now. But each time I think back and reflect, I am thankful that at least I made the attempt to do it. Sometimes I did succeed in overcoming my fear; sometimes I still fear and did not attempt and will regret as a result.


Fears I have overcome:

Not knowing my purpose of life.

I used to wonder/grasp for what is my true meaning in life. I wanted a clear direction, purpose, and a reason to live for.

There will always be uncertainties in my life, but I am confident to say I know my purpose and direction in life now

Sharing my fears and weakness to my friends/anyone

I used to be afraid of being looked down upon by my friends, but now as I reflect back, I realized this is such a self-limiting thought

If they don’t know, how then can they help me grow?

Admitting that I am wrong and apologizing

I used to fear saying sorry to other people even if I know that I am in the wrong.

I used to think that doing so is a sign of weakness.

Then I learnt it is an act of humility.

Asking for help in different areas of my life

My personal pride was the major hindrance to that.

I used to think I can handle everything and would fear of letting people know of my incompetence, but then I realize that this is hindering my personal growth. I need to admit that I need help from others and to ask people for help

Once again, this is an act of humility

I used to fear that people will criticize my views of things

Then I realized that I cannot grow if I do not know the loophole/blind spot of my own argument

Expressing my feelings/love to people

I used to fear facing rejection from people

Then I realized I will never know how they will response until I first love them.

These fears will always be present in my life and I admit it will always be a struggle to overcome them, even though I have overcome them before, because every experience/situation is unique/dynamic.


Fears I have yet to overcome :

Expressing love to my own family member

Sharing the gospel to complete strangers